未来

未来能够做什么？我真的不太清楚自己能够做些什么。很常的时候，我会被别人吐槽，被别人看扁。虽然我的技巧不怎么样。可是感觉很难过的就是被别人看低。然后自信就跟着落下。可是我想做自己喜欢的事。而且我答应自己不要放弃自己喜欢的。不管怎么样。我很感谢那些能够在我低潮时不吐槽我，反而帮我鼓励我的人们。我不会忘记的。不会忘记你们的安慰，也会记得那些伤害我的话语。因为那些都是我的动力。有一天我会找到自己真正想做的事。明天会更好。

Cure for excessive hair loss😆

Hello! I'm back again😄 Today I'm gonna share the cure to my excessive hair loss.. Hahaa! 

Around end of May I get really sick.. Fever, sore throat, flu, ear and nose block(cause me out of balance), short term memories loss(effect of the medicines), and I have no appetite to eat, I only take 3 full mouth to have my medicines.. Doctors give me a tons of Panadols, Tamiflu, ear drop, and antibiotics. It takes me 2 months to fully recover. But after recover from sickness I started to have excessive hair loss! 

I loss this much after every single hair wash😢

Every friends around me also told me I have serious hair loss problem and they notice I'm getting balder and balder😢😢

So I went to a drugstore and the pharmacist there told me is either the side effect of the medicines or malnutrition cause this excessive hair loss. She suggest me to take hair tonic(apply on hair scalp) or take multi-vitamins. She also told take multi-vitamins will take longer time to recover. And yet I still choose to eat multi-vitamins. But after 2 months there are still no obvious result😨

I still loss this much after every single hair wash😢

I thought I'm going be bald soon😨 if I still continue loss my hair..

Until last week I only decided to buy and try hair tonic. MILBON tonic Neo Leaf, Product from Japan and manufactured by MILBON Co,Ltd.

Neo Leaf hair tonic help to strengthen our hair and scalp, and prevent hair loss. It help to cure dandruff too. This tonic can moisture our scalp to maintain it clean and healthy.

Personally can accept the smell. Actually it smell quite nice(if you can accept the smell of plants or herbs). It actually smell like herbs and plants plus a lil bit of mint.. When you apply on your scalp you can feel the cool mint effect.. Hahaha! It is liquid not oily type of tonic.

Pharmacist recommend me to use it twice a day(preferable use after shampoo or bath). I just put a few drop on my hair scalp then massage for 3 mins.

And after a week I was shocked by the result! 😱

The hair loss after a sigle hair wash is obvious become lesser.😆

In a week, Neo Leaf hair tonic help me to prevent excessive hair loss. 

But I have to continue use to grow my healty and shiny hair back! 😁 I am so excited to see the result again after I continue use it for a month. 

To who suffer unhealthy scalp, hair loss or dandruff, you might want to try out Neo Leaf hair tonic!😉 You can get it at Caring drugstore.😊

Hope I help you out of something and wish you all have a nice day!❤️

xo

J

人生低潮时期

人生中会遇到很多难过的事情 比如说

你喜欢的人不喜欢你。

你看见喜欢的人喜欢别人。

你被喜欢的人拒绝。

你错过了一个人。

你看到你很好的朋友跟别人更好的时候。

你被人误会的时候。

你被重视的人不被信任的时候。

你被在乎的人冷落。

你被在乎的人忽冷忽热的对待。

你被在乎的人突然疏远。

你被在乎的人不重视。

你对曾经很好的朋友失去了信任。

你发现你再怎样努力挽回 都没有用的那一刻。

你发现你们已经回不去以前的那一刻。

人生低潮的时候，在乎的人并没有来关心你。

你最希望他出现的时候，他没有出现。

在你需要他的时候，他完全没有出现的那一刻。

当你发现到头来你还是一个人的时候。

念了以上的事物 有没有感触呢？😭

在你的人生里应该会遇到一些这样的事物… 

想说的是 要学会放下 

人生最大的功课 可以说是 放下

如果记得太牢这些伤心事 最后你只会更痛苦罢了 那不如让自己善恶一点 留多一点时间去寄望 自己将来遇到更对的人 一起记下更多快乐的气味 😀😃😄

生命中总有那么一段时光 充满不安 充满感伤 充满伤害 可是除了勇敢面对 我们别无选择 当你感觉人生没那么如意 很低潮的时候 当你对自己的表现没那么满意 当你对自己爱的人或自己感到失望 当你觉得自己再也坚持不下去的时候 请记得对自己说 没关系 我们都是这样长大的💪🏻

再大的伤痛 睡一觉把它忘了。背着昨天追赶明天 会累坏了每一个当下，边走边忘，才能感受每一个迎面而来的幸福 。

人生吧 我们会碰到很多很不开心的事 遇到很多不好的人 但偶尔也会发生很好的事哦 一定会有好事发生 我们就是为了遇见那些好事才努力活下来

加油！好吗？

Life's Tragedy

By Paul Laurence Dunbar

It may be misery not to sing at all,

And to go silent through the brimming day;

It maybe misery never to be loved,

But deeper grief than these beset the way.

To sing this perfect song,

And by a half-tone lost the key, 

There the potent sorrow, there the grief,

The pale, sad staring of Life's Tragedy.

To have come near to the perfect love,

Not the hot passion of untempered youth,

But that which lies aside it's vanity,

And gives, for thy trusting worship, truth.

This, this indeed is to be accursed,

For if we mortals love, or if we sing,

We count our joys not by what we have,

But by what kept us from that perfect thing.

Poem sharing😉

xo

J

My free time😁

For this sem, I left 2 classes and 1 online course. I just finish one final exam 2 weeks ago, it is a super duper busy week. Now is totally opposite, I got only 3 classes (total 6 hours) a week.. So free!! Too free until I don know what to do.. Hahaha! 

Recently I started to watch Game of Thrones.. A television series.. A lot of friends recommend me to watch long time ago especially male friends.. But I reject because I thought the story would be another boring story about war.. BUT I am so wrong!! GOT(Game of Thrones) is really really nice!👍 And I finally understand why all my friends(male) are so crazy over GOT.. Except the actors and actresses are stunning there also a lot of 18+ scenes. Hahahaha! 🈲🔞 

Now I recommend you to watch "Game of Thrones". ❤️ Hahaha~ 

Personally love this series. Story is so unpredictable! And this story is so real.. It also reflect our world today..

My own thoughts : Lucky people always say "I would to be the good guy." Unlucky people say "I won't be bad guy if I got the chance to be the good one..". Life is unfair.😔 World is so corrupted. No one want to be a good guy anymore😤 because " kindness will get you kill". And is true, the bad guy always have longer live than the good guy. Bad guy live because he saved by the kindness, and good guy get killed because of the kindness. Such an ironic!

Beside watching series I also force myself to read books.. Haahaa!! Unbelievable~~ is a hard for me, because I don like to read, but no choice my language are getting worst!😢😢 Detective types of books always got my eyes.. I started to read one which I bought from Big Bad Wolf books fair..  The books there are in good quality and very cheap! Hahaha! I need to develope a reading lifestyle!😆 

And this is my nail of the week! (Out of nowhere.. I know😂) Hahaha! Not much tools needed.. Tools is also easy to get.. You just need nail polish and toothpicks. Then you can start design your own pattern! Easy right?😉 Hahaha! I got stripes, triangle, pokka dots, square pattern one my left hand and alphabet, love, stripes, pokka dots, circle one my right hand.. I will learn more skills, do more pattern next time and share it with you guys😄 stay tuned! 😉

Hope you enjoy reading❤️

And wish you have a nice day ahead😊

xo

J

Depression

When you are depressed, What will you do? Your mind is a powerful thing. When your mind is full of negative thoughts, you will become negatively. When your mid is full of positive thoughts, you will become more optimistic and your life starts to change. 

I would like to share some quotes from Facebook for you and I will elaborate some. It might be useful for you when you are depressed. 

Take the long view . Think about if ten years later , will you care about that again? Definitely, No. It just a small matter and you might be regret if you keep caring about those bad things and don't enjoy your life. 

Stay true to our vision. See it again in our mind. Sometime it's hard to achieve our dream. Maybe we work very hard , we put many effort on it but we don't get what we want. Don't give up. Our greatness weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is to try just one more time. 

Sometime we are depressed because we compare ourself to others. We may think that they are better than us, everything is better but why Im so sucks. Bad in everything. Think positive. When you admire someone, he or she might admires you too at the same time. This happens because we all are unique, we can't be replaced, we all have our own ability, talent, good and bad. 

When you are depressed, get outside, move and breathe. This not only can refresh your mind but will make your mood better. This is useful too when you are stress about exams. 

Don't let ego get in the way of our development. We all always let ego get in the way of our development due to our weakness. We always think that we are not good enough, we are weak, nothing good happen, can't do anything nicely. We fed up with that and our development stops there. And you see other people are keep improving. 

For Those who are better than you , they must put many effort on it But you don't know. You just know their achievement not their background. 

So tell ourself that keep our head up,I've on and work hard. Remember Hard work can beat talent. 

There is no such thing as failure. There is only education. Our life will not be good at all, God will give us some failures and some hardships. Why? Because those things can make us grow up and learn something that is valuable from those lessons. Everything that happen on you is God's arrangement. Learn from mistakes, Learn from failures. 

Change our rules for being happy. Sometime our happiness are controlled by some people which are important to us. So, sometime if they hurt us or leave us, we might feel very down , or very sad , and lost our happiness. 

We shouldn't let our happiness be controlled by someone but controlled by ourself. So how? We can do something that we like , do something that can make you happy and surround yourself with the people that you like. 

At some point in your life, you will go through a break up. Don't worry, things will get better. 

Time heals everything

focus on your future 

Don't die living in the past. 

Sometime you are depressed and lost, you need help. I would like to recommend you to find your parents for help. Because they love you the most, they had many life experiences, and they must help you. They will give you useful helps and what you need. 

Just Forget the Past and Move On. Maybe you had a lot of failures before, but just Give our best work now. Past is passed. 

Hope these are useful to you. And let's us think positive, be positive, and be better and better. Cheers! ❤️

#JH 

分享文章

哈咯！ 我又来了。 今天刷脸书的时候看见一篇文章觉得很感触，就拿上来这里分享了。 

文章标题 是 爱与被爱。 究竟选择一个你爱的， 或者是一个爱你的人？ 其实每个人心里都有着不一样的看法 不一样的结论。 这应该是根据每个人的生活经历而定。

《转载》

[愛情故事] 愛與被愛

男孩有一個女友，
她長得普普通通，不像有的女孩很會打扮、會彈琴、會作菜，但還算溫柔體貼。

她會每晚幫他買好晚餐送到他家，因為她說她順路。
她會在每次吵架之後先撒撒嬌，求他原諒她的任性。
她會在他睡前打一通電話說晚安，說她很需要人陪。
她會在他和朋友出門玩時，在門口揮手和大家說再見。

她很懂事，但男孩並不特別喜歡她，
只是有一個女朋友，總比沒有人陪好。
可是這樣的日子久了，男孩也有點不耐煩。

所以，
男孩開始嫌棄晚餐的菜難吃。
吵架總是用很難聽的話罵她。
每一天只等她主動打電話來。
和朋友出門時完全不接電話。

甚至當著大家的面對她大小聲，約會遲到，找不到人。

可是女朋友都沒有生氣，她會垂頭喪氣，
但是隔天就立刻帶著世故和溫暖的笑容回來。
他甚至連她的眼淚都沒看過。

堅強
也是她女友的個性優點，
但他就是嫌她這點不夠女人。

一直到有一天，女友的生日，男孩忘記了。
但是很奇怪，到了隔天傍晚，女友竟然連一通電話都沒打來。

平常這個時候，她早就該帶著晚餐出現，
一邊說：「對不起喔！我又晚到了啦！工作好累」，
然後穿著那個破洞的牛仔褲，一副很狼狽的模樣。

出了客廳，卻看到門縫底下塞了一個信封，
上面註明是給他的，他認得，這是女友的筆跡，
男孩打開信封，裡頭的信紙上寫了一段話：

親愛的，你知道「被愛」是怎樣嗎？

被愛是，每天下班都有人幫你準備好晚餐。
被愛是，每一次爭吵責任都是在對方身上。
被愛是，每一天都會接到對方關心的電話。
被愛是，每一次和朋友出門都無牽無掛。
被愛是 ，不管做錯了什麼事，對方不是罵你，
而是帶著包容的微笑抱著你。

親愛的，那你知道「去愛」是怎麼樣嗎？

去愛是，即使每天為了準備晚餐匆忙下班，
甚至趕到出車禍都不讓對方知道，怕他擔心。

去愛是，即使知道對方無理取鬧，
推卸責任，卻忍著心痛主動說抱歉。

去愛是，即使每次打電話過去，對方總是口氣很差、
不耐煩或不接電話，還是沒辦法忍住不打。

去愛是，即使對方和朋友出門，自己很擔心，
還是在大家面前微笑，為了給心愛的人面子。

去愛是，即使明明知道對方完全不愛你，
還是義無反顧，流著眼淚去愛他，卻絕不會表現出一點難過。

我一直用盡全力「去愛」，但現在我累了，
我需要找一個人讓我「被愛」。
所以再見了，希望你能找到讓你「去愛」的人。

讀完這封信，男孩才知道，
原來「被愛」的人是那麼幸福，而「去愛」的人是這麼辛苦。
而他這一刻才發現，肚子餓了，房間裡竟然沒有現用的晚餐。

而他這一刻才發現，原來每一次吵架，
對的人從來是女友，但她從來不力爭到底。

而他這一刻才發現，昨晚睡覺前為什麼覺得心裡不踏實，
原來是因為女友沒和他說晚安。

而他這一刻才發現，為什麼他的朋友都喜歡他女友，
因為她用心的顧慮到男方的一切，包括朋友的感受。

而他這一刻才發現，原來女友照顧他的方式這麼無微不至，
以致於他完全沒發現，甚至感到不耐煩。

「被愛」的人，請記得要惜福，不是每一個「去愛」的人都會永遠毫無悔恨的為你付出。
不要以為一通電話、一個笑容、一頓晚餐，都是應該的。

因為「去愛」的人花了多少心血在這些事情上，
「被愛」的人永遠不會知道。

其实有时候我会感觉我在扮演着（去爱)那个角色，当然只是有些时候，像要操心这个那个，当事人却没啥反应或感动。举个例子就是我记得他的课程表，他不记得我的（好吧感觉这是件小事) 好多零零碎碎的东西啦。所以今天看见这篇文章就很有感觉,当然也只是属于小emo啦。

 哈哈 只能说是不是有点--少年不识愁滋味，为赋新词强说愁呢？今天其实也就是纯粹上来分享一篇不错的文章啦。 不知道你们看了会不会和我有一样的感觉或者有新的领悟呢？ 

 #M

My very first time experience

I was registered to join a business challenge game last week. The reason that I registered this event is because my friend joined it too. And this is my very first time participate in such a challenge event.

So, I went to the business challenge event today. We are divided into groups. My teammates are so knowlegeable, have a broad thinking skill and they are able to speak English fluently. These all are my weaknesses and this actually setback me. 

I was fear of present in front of many people as I have a bad communication skill. But today, I had given a task to present my own idea based on the case study. I didn't do a well preparation on it and because of my weaknesses, I actually did a bad presentation today. 

This really make me feel sad. But thinking positively, it definitely give lesson to me on what aspect should I improve on. Anyway, thanks god for giving me a chance to participate in this kind of challenge event. 

That's all for my sharing. Be positive always and learnt from mistake. 

#L

说走就走的旅行💨

一个说走就走的旅行😆 说了很久终于做到了✌️ 去了Johor三天两夜, 谢谢朋友和他家人的宽待，带我去吃好吃的，玩好玩的。 

和朋友弟弟的合照。他家人都很可爱很搞笑！超喜欢他弟弟的😂 我真的没有恋童癖😆

Johor的粿条仔，有点像粿条加 kueh zap的汤，我们还有另加了瘦肉,豆腐和卤蛋。很早就卖完了,建议大家早去哦，多人时还得排队😨 

我还去Johor文化街哪里买了出名的coconut bun 和 banana cake，他们还有很多种面包 还有butter cake和 coffee cake(不是每天有的哦), 都很好吃也都得排队哦。到了Johor 一定要吃的，朋友说没吃过等于没来过!😁

再继续走会到magic spot 里面有个可爱的魔术师 Mr. Peter Chua ❤️ 他也有卖很多种魔术道具。

一看就懂他人很好也很可爱对吧？哈哈！他魔术也很厉害哦。被他耍一耍我也得了被害妄想症😔 后来我也跟他买了一些简单容易学的道具，打算以后就到处表演赚生活费。大家记得来捧场噢😂哈哈哈哈哈哈！

晚上朋友带我到Denga Beach 看海走走, 对面就是Singapore, 从那里可看到Singapore 噢，这里适合一家人或情侣去哦😳  

我们也到了Country Club 走走 拍照

Yea! I'm from Sarawak! I'm proud to be a Sarawakian!😄

第二天去了Johor Premium Outlet shopping😍 很好逛只是钱包不够厚😭 哈哈哈！

逛完后就跟着朋友去潮州锣鼓对的练习。他们每个都很厉害，样样乐器都会玩。每个都会扬琴,二胡,古筝,锣鼓,琵琶等 有些还会歌剧和京剧 。多数是小学和中学生 有几个小学都还没毕业就已经有国际水准 还可以做老师教初学👏  还常常出国比赛表演 很羡慕他们😔 有兴趣的记得找我朋友学哦（可以留言跟我拿联络方式😉）

我发现那里教音乐还教礼仪。最让我羡慕的是那里的全部人都很有礼貌 看到人自动走前问安 第一次见面也走前来跟我说“姐姐好” ，“姐姐你口渴吗？要喝茶吗？”， “姐姐你饿吗？等下一起宵夜吗？” ，吃宵夜的时候食物到了也会叫人吃饭 “老师uncle aunty 姐姐 哥哥吃” 不是一个而是全班噢 他们个个都很有礼貌。现在很难得见到这样的小孩子。

现在多数的小孩子都没有那个美国时间一个一个像长辈问安吧？多数都一边玩手机 iPad 一边吃饭吧？有些伤感和内疚感因为我也是其中一个 哈哈！😅那晚我就抱着羡慕+内疚感的心态进入梦乡找周公了😂

第三天 我们又去教锣鼓啦👏 坐了45分钟的车程到了笨珍小学 那里学最久的也只学了两年 他们都为11月的表演做准备 一些学生还在读幼儿园 因为年纪较小不能长时间练习 我还变成了他们的幼教 教他们读生字 彩颜色 玩游戏 哈哈哈哈哈！uncle aunty 还问我要不要去教书？笑死人了 哈哈哈！不要看小我噢！😂  

5小时的练习结束后 大家都依依不舍的挥手说再见👋

午餐就到顺顺兴肉骨茶（KSL City对面）解决 这里也是要排队才吃得到噢😁

卤猪脚，卤豆腐，肉骨茶还有猪油渣酸菜 真的是一级棒👍 来这里吃讲究的是timing 太早卤猪脚还没弄好 太晚卖光光 周末大排长龙😨 不要complain就是因为好吃他们才可以那么pattern😆 

最后就回家收拾 又得回去马六甲上课了😢 快乐的时光总是过得很快😔 下次我还要再来 多住几天 吃更多好吃的😝 我知道我已经不可以再吃了 但是！Food for Life❤️ 哈哈哈哈哈哈！所以我永远都减不到肥😭

谢谢你们耐心的念完 *我希望😆

希望我有让你们有冲动要去Johor玩.

希望我有让你们肚子饿! *吃吧！吃了才有力减肥！😂

祝大家有个愉快的一天❤️😁

xo,

J

Friendship

Friends are important in our life. 

Friends are the one who know you well but still love you. 

During childhood, we could make friends easily by just say "Hi" and we could play together happily. All things are good. 

During Primary School, all our classmates can be our good friends unless you are shy one. We could build a strong friendship during that time because all of us were young and pure. We would quarrel easily but it's temporary. We could say I don't want to play with you anymore or "我不要跟你好", but after a while, we played together again. The one who we dislike always been forgiven by us easily during this time. This is because we treasure those good times. 

I got a lot of good friends during Primary school. Fortunately, we still have some gathering now. I can see that everyone is growing, changing and becoming better person through every reunion. I'm blessed and happy to have this kind of friendships. It's awesome when you have Friendship which started from childhood that survive into adult years. 

During High school, maybe all of your classmate are still your friends but this time you would only have a bunch of good friends. You had a gang this time. A strong friendship would be built up within your gang. This time, you would do many crazy things with your gang. Eating in the class, Skip Classes, Skip School, Teasing Teachers, Joining Clubs, Performances, Hang Out, Gossips about Crush, Group Study for Exams and etc. 

7 sistars are formed during high school. Some of us were classmates and all of us are in the same church. So all of us would meet at there every weekend. I'm blessed to have all of you. We had a lot of memories. We did perform cover of "Love Story by Taylor Swift" during Chinese Club dinner. 

That was really unexpected because not all of us know music but we did a nice performance. We would always go to Esther house and practice. It's the best thing ever when you can play music together with your good friends. 

As time passes, something bad happened in this friendships. And Of course, we did quarrel. We hated each other then we had separated into small group. But at last, we all apologised to each other, we repented and expressed our feelings. Then we became good friends again. It's because We realised that we are inseparable, we miss each other and we need each other. 

"Simple friendships end with an argument, but real friendships start with one." 

"Real friends won't ever let an argument get in the way of their friendship, they are not afraid to apologise and always forgive."

When you have an argument with your friends right, remember express your feeling and tell them what do you feel, what do you think. You have to express it to them if you care about them. Because nobody knows if you don't express it.  

Nobody can read your mind everytime even though you guys stick together everyday. 

Now we had entered into different universities. This time 7 of us are really have been separated. 7 of us have different life stories, so we decide to make a blog. A blog about 7 of us and here it is. 

Although we are in different places now, distance makes us more cherish each other and make our friendships stronger. 

"Sometime people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together" 

"True friends never apart. Maybe in distance but not in heart" 

Moreover, Friendship is built on trust. If you don't have trust, the friendship will crumble. Trust is easy to build up but once it's broken, it's really hard to build up again. So you should choose your friends wisely as they can affect your life. 

"Choose when you can choose"

"Remember this: Friends are supposed to make you feel better."

I would tell you that you should Make friends with those who will support you, who can have deep conversation with, who can lend you shoulder, who can give you a hug when you are crying, who will give you positive vibes , and believe in you. 

"A friend in need is a friend indeed"

When you grow up, you will realise that you have lesser and lesser friends but for those who still stay, they are real friends. A realisation only comes with time is that knowing which friends are real is much more important than having a lot of them. 

Maybe now your good friends are far away from you in distance, but whenever you need them, they will always be there. True friends will be at your side through it all. 

Throughout your life, you may lose some good friends through distance. Friendship is just like Love, you have to maintain it and manage it nicely sometime. Sometime you will lose them, maybe because they change or they have new friends. It's ok, You don't have to blame them. 

I know this is really sad and heartbroken. The worst feeling ever when good friends become strangers. You will feel really down and a lot of good memories are lingering in your mind. You will feel like wanna talk to them but you know that they just don't want to talk to you. Maybe this is normal. Why do I say so? People will change. Everybody has their own choice and not everyone will stay by your side until the end. Throughout your life journey, some people will leave you. 

Many times, there's no right or wrong. It's just depend on how you think about it. If they leave you, just remember the good part of the friendships and move on. 

Understand that Friends come and go but with a precious few you should hold on. The older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young

"People come and go. The best will always stay" 

We will make new friends every year but there was never any substitute for those old friends. 

If you have one good friend or more than that in your life , you are lucky enough. You are blessed and you should say thank you to God. 

Dear Friends, no matter you already left me or forget me or what, I just want to say that I'm glad to meet you, thanks for those good parts, and hope you know this! 

Thank you so much. God bless. 

Hope you guys enjoy reading this and wish you have nice friendships too! 

By Ah Shu 

有感而发 ❤️ （深夜文）

我这个人比较跟不上时代的脚步，有写日记的习惯（以前），可是老实说这是我我第一次写部落格XD 

我在7个姐妹里是最老的一个吧 :$ 人是需要同伴，神在最起初也造了一个女人来陪伴亚当。而很感谢神、我有了6个讨人厌的姐妹们。XD

现在的我们分散在不同的城市，见面的次数也少，可是聚在一起时不会没话题尴尬，一样吵吵闹闹xD 

（开始诉说离乡背井的凄凉故事）

放弃工作一直都是我想做的事（可是我责任感重还愧疚感重），哈哈！当了两年的幼教老师，活在小孩围绕吵闹调皮的环境中，我几度差点奔溃 TT (虽然我喜欢小孩）。感恩在其中以为姐妹（M）的鼓励下、跟家人讨论下、我决定辞职，才选择再继续我的读书生涯。

感恩我有个支持我的男友，他放弃出国读书的念头只因为想在我身边陪伴我、护着我、而跟我一起来到这座陌生的城市读书。

因为有他的陪伴，这座城市不再陌生没安全感，还格外让人安心。:')

(好吧…都偏题了！哈哈哈哈）

人与人之间需要沟通，而我是个非常需要沟通，分享心情的一个人。我的男朋友跟我，我们都会一起聊天，分享，讨论，决定某些事。

昨天晚上（现在2am）。我们像往常一样坐在阳台说说话。他心事特别重，眉头深锁，他告诉我他很迷茫，不知道要怎么办。他是一个很善良的男人 （可以说他全家都很善良），想的也特别多，他告诉我他好想有自己的事业，想有经济能力，他想要照顾他家人，他想趁父母亲还在的时候，想带他们，我，我母亲，去看看外面的世界。可是却不知道要怎么起步，要怎么开始。

我告诉他，是不是你的第一步就已经错了。他不明白。我再说，一开始你非常纠结，犹豫，绞尽脑汁想要，尝试了那么多方法，最后你得到了什么吗？（他摇摇头，沮丧）

我再说，神是预备的神，你的未来神都预备好了，你成天想这个想那个想得到这个那个，是不是你越强求的东西，你越得不到？神还没给你预备你要怎么得到？（他好像开通了一点）

我再给他举一个我亲身的例子：我家庭不富有，在我15岁开始想要美貌的时候，才发现我的龅牙很丑，那时的我最想要的就是绑牙 （爸爸说过等我18岁会带我去绑牙），我想尽一切方法去绑牙，可是当我母亲告诉我她们没法负担的时候。我生气，纠结，闹了半年，最后我失望，放弃、看开了。在我18岁时，爸爸过世了，有一天偶然的去补牙时，妈妈就问我几时要去绑牙（我蛮惊讶妈妈说这句话），最后我就去绑了牙。偶然想回去，才发现说越强求的东西，越难得到。现在我牙齿美美derr :目 

再举一个他自己的例子吧（请不要嫌啰嗦）：他从以前就是个很渴望爱情的人，不懂事的我们在不对的时候相爱（15岁）。而我对爱情也很陌生，我渴望也很害怕，不敢接受。最后我选择拒绝他、逃避他、不再跟他联络。我这样的举动给他造成了一定份量的伤害，导致他对爱情绝望，不再渴望。四年后，爱情又来到了他身边，偶然的告白，我接受了他，最后我还是来到了他的身边。

重点呢？：我只是想说，神不是不给，不预备，不听。只是还没给，还没预备。

我告诉他凡事一步一步来，不要贪婪。想那么多自己那么有压力，忧郁，难过，搞到自己的生活那么复杂。你人生的转折点神还没给你预备，要怎么有能力照顾你家人？现在能做的就是往一个真的能让你看到未来的的方向前进。简单的。

他抱了我一下。

（今天就啰嗦到这里，晚安！）

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Non biological sistars❤️

Hi there :D 

My very first blog post, everything is so new to me. But STILL not too late to learn! Hahaha! Thanks to my non biological sisters❤️ Teach me patiently with love. Glad to have them in my life. 

F R I E N D S means

Fight for you

Respect you

Include you

Encourage you

Need you

Deserve you

Stand by you

All 7 of them pass this check list.. Hahaha! Yea.. I'm proud of them :P

If you don't cherish the friends who will look after you, who support you, who lend a hand when you in trouble, who love you unconditionally, who laugh at your funny joke, who hug you when you needed one, who listen out when you have stories to tell.. One day you will wish you had! 

"No much true friends in the real world" Most of us learn this by hard.. Sadly me too :'(  no one is perfect.. 7 people with 7 different character, 7 different habits, 7 different attitude.. We had conflict but we get back together, get closer and more understand each other that's how our relationship last long! :目 *not long enough! Hahaha! I'm really thankful and appreciate to had them always by my side! :'D

Hereby I also wish everyone have a long lasting friendship❤️ And thanks for reading! Remember to follow us and share out :) Show us some love! Tehee!

xo

J